Hey guys, I am having some serious thoughts here and I wanted to share and see what you guys had to say about it.
I am sitting here trying to get a paper done and its not happening. I am still pretty sick, even though I am in my second trimester. I am feeling like I can not do this and maybe I should stop for the semester. I dont know what to do. My second mailing is due on sunday and I do not feel prepared. I also have to meet with my AT during the weekend and right now I have no images to show. I have actually done some paintings instead.
I guess I just am questioning how I am going to do this and get through this. I am so distracted and my body just wont let me do anything. Honeslty, the last thing I want to do is stop what I want to do but I feel like everytime I go to get omething done, I dont feel good or something gets in my way.
I am going to try and ask for another extension for this mailing like I did the last one, but I am not sure how much it helps. I am so effing tired all the time. I cant help but feel really depressed right now. You're thoughts would help.
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Dear Diana,
ReplyDeleteFirst off - congratulations on nurturing another human being into existence! Secondly- congratulations on getting your first mailing in. Third(ly) Painting???!! That sounds very interesting- I would love to hear the motivation behind that direction. I imagine you are planning to show your AT that work...
No matter what we, and others say, you are probably inclined to think you haven't done shit since you got pregnant. Please try to put that aside.
You are the only one who can decide if taking the semester off is the right thing to do now. I guess I would ask- what would you do with the time once you took a leave of absence? Would it be a relief, or would you feel something was missing?
Are you working on one paper for next mailing, or several shorts? If you have something to show Michelle-anything, send it out and ask for an extension on the rest- if you have nothing yet, ask for more time. Faculty understand that we want to show our best, (as they- want to read/see our best) we owe it to ourselves.
It sounds like you have been working through the difficulty of the semester by taking care of yourself, setting your own pace, and asking for extensions- you could continue to do that, and see where it goes.
You are soooo not alone Diana. It has been a difficult semester for some of us too so far, and we don't have the bonus of a beautiful baby waiting for us at the end!
Much Love,
Sumru